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2012-01-04T09:33:00.000-08:00

my simple 2012 resolution : to help more. what's yours?

2011-12-05T08:02:00.001-08:00

2011-10-05T08:46:00.000-07:00

mermaid or whale?

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was "This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?"

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way:

"Dear people, whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.
They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.
They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.

But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish?
They would have no sex life and could not bear children.
Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad.
And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I'd rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.

We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn't enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.
We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.
Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: "How amazing am I ?! "

(The girl on the picture is French model Tara Lynn) and I grabbed this article from

Delphine Fieberg facebook account :)

2011-10-04T23:11:00.000-07:00

boundaries.

it's good to have boundaries untuk setiap hal yang lu lakuin. dan gue sangat bangga sama diri gue sendiri karna udah ngelewatin masa abg labil dengan batasan-batasan yang jelas. beruntung gue punya orang tua yang selalu ingetin gue untuk gak wasting time wasting money by doing stupid things. sebenernya udah sejak lama gue pengen banget nulis tentang ini. tapi nggak pernah kesampean, now I'm in the good mood to write things like this.

jadi gini ceritanya, temennya temen gue baru aja ada yang meninggal karna obat-obat terlarang. dan gue diceritain gimana dia berjuang ngelawan sakitnya di hari-hari terakhir sebelum dia meninggal. this kind of story makes me think how lucky I am today :) kalo aja, dulu gue terjerumus hal-hal yang nggak baik, mungkin gue akan bernasib sama dengan orang tadi.

gue selalu punya batasan atau limit di setiap hal yang gue lakuin. seperti gue gak akan merokok, gue gak akan minum-minuman keras, dan pergi clubbing. gue punya alesan kuat kenapa gue gak akan melakukan hal-hal yang udah gue sebutkan tadi. mungkin banyak yang nganggep gue cupu karena gak punya masa remaja yang nakal dan gaul. tapi, gue bangga sama komitmen gue ini. menurut gue, mencari jati diri pas remaja nggak selalu dengan cara menunjukan seberapa eksis dan nakalnya lu di dunia luar. well, thats my opinion.

ntah uda berapa banyak temen yang nyodorin rokok depan mulut gue, tapi gue gak pernah tertarik sedikitpun buat nyoba. karena gue peduli sama kesehatan, gue gak mau terkapar 10 tahun dari sekarang karena punya masalah paru-paru,jantung atau pembuluh darah, or worse. kedua,gue pengen punya rahim yang sehat untuk tempat anak-anak gue nanti di masa depan. karna merokok sangat nggak baik untuk organ kewanitaan kita. jadi, selain sayang diri sendiri, sayang juga sama calon anak kita. ketiga, gue gak suka bau asep nempel di rambut, baju dan kulit gue. berasa kayak abang-abang,hehehe.

clubbing. alesan terbesar gue gak suka clubbing karna gue gak suka lagu-lagu yang diputerin di club. terlalu fancy dan overbeat. gue suka lagu yang tenang dengan lirik-lirik yang bagus. duduk-duduk ngobrol sama orang-orang terdekat di cafe/restoran sambil dengerin live music yang bisa kita nyanyiin lagunya adalah hal yang lebih menyenangkan. dan kedua, disitu tempat yang padet dan banyak asep. ketiga, gue pasti akan sangat nggak nyaman berada di dalam situ.

kalo alesan kenapa gue nggak minum adalah karena gue sangat suka wine sebenernya. tapi, gue mau saat gue minum wine gue dalam mood terbaik dan dalam keadaan yang sangat spesial. kalo sehari-harinya aja gue udah sering minum alkohol, nggak ada yang spesial lagi saat gue minum itu di waktu yang spesial, iya kan? dan soal ngobat, gue sangat tidak berniat nyentuhnya karena gue selalu inget omongan nyokap "sesuatu yang sangat enak di awal, selalu berdampak buruk di akhir. jangan pernah nyesel di akhir." thanks mom, that was the best advice,by far :)

sekali lagi, ini opini gue kenapa gue punya batesan-batesan atas hal yang gue lakuin. nggak semua orang berpikiran yang sama kayak gue, dan gue juga sangat menghargai pemikiran orang-orang lain. no offense buat yang sering clubbing,minum dan ngerokok. that's your choice and I appreciate it. tapi ada baiknya, kita harus punya limit atas semua hal. karena kita uda dewasa dan harus tau resiko dari segala hal yang kita lakuin. don't ruin your life by doing things that actually you dont feel comfortable doing it, okay :) be responsible to your body and your life guys!

2011-09-29T13:50:00.001-07:00

sela.

2011-09-29T13:15:00.000-07:00

these are happiness according to me.

2011-09-25T09:31:00.001-07:00

Lessons in Life

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

4. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

8. It's okay to get angry with God. He can take it.

9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

12. It's okay to let your children see you cry.

13. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

16. Life is too short for long pity parties. Get busy living, or get busy dying.

17. You can get through anything if you stay put in today.

18. A writer writes. If you want to be a writer, write.

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

22. Over-prepare, then go with the flow.

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.

25. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: "In five years, will this matter?"

27. Always choose life.

28. Forgive everyone everything.

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

32. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

33. Believe in miracles.

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.

35. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

37. Your children get only one childhood. Make it memorable.

38. Read the Psalms. They cover every human emotion.

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.

41. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

42. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

43. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

44. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

45. The best is yet to come.

46. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.

47. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

48. If you don't ask, you don't get.

49. Yield.

50. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

2011-09-22T11:55:00.000-07:00

I want to hug you.

2011-09-21T13:47:00.000-07:00

terakhir ngecek tanggal, sekitar 22 September. itu berarti waktu udah nggak jalan lagi, tapi lari sprint, atau barangkali nempel di roket. sadar atau enggak udah mau masuk penghujung 2011 lagi. begitu banyak hari-hari yang uda kebuang, dan begitu banyak 2011's new year resolutions yang cuma jadi angan-angan belaka. ya kan?

dan yaampun gue baru sadar gue nulis blog lagi loh. setelah sekian lama cuma masuk-masukin video, foto, atau quotes. maaf atas kevakumannya selama ini. salahin kuliah yang ngerampas hampir 80% hidup gue sekarang, bahkan weekend aja tetep tidur cuma 3 jam. kasian yah..tapi abis ini akan nyoba nulis blog lagi secara rutin, mungkin sebulan sekali *apanya yang rutin ya?*

oke kembali ke hidup saya.

24 Agustus kemarin. baru aja 2 tahunan sama Chandra. kita nggak pernah jadiin setiap hari jadi itu spesial dan sama-sama santai soal ini. we always keep it simple. Chandra bawain kue kecil dengan angka 2 di atasnya, dan niup bareng-bareng di mobil sambil make a wish dan tukeran kado kecil-kecilan. dilanjutin makan malem kayak hari-hari biasa. nggak ada yang sangat spesial hari itu, semuanya sama spesialnya dengan 730 hari yang udah dilaluin bareng :)

sempet pergi ke Eropa bareng keluarga di libur lebaran kemarin. akhirnya pergi sekeluarga juga karena udah direncanain dari beberapa tahun lalu, tapi selalu gagal karena jadwal libur nggak pernah sama. akhirnya dengan sedikit kompromi untuk bolos dan nyicil banyak tugas, lebaran kemarin bisa pergi ke Eropa bareng keluarga. seneng banget dan pengen balik lagi..banget

oh iya kalo sempet, cek band yang ini ya. band folk dari indonesia namanya Backwood Sun, kalo uda denger lagunya pasti nggak nyangka ini band dari Indonesia. lagunya mirip fleet foxes dan bisa dibeli di iTunes store, atau di bawah label UK ini di bawah ini :

click me :)

oke deh uda jam 4:50 pagi belom tidur, kantong mata uda makin shiny. pamit dulu guys, see you in the next post! adios!

2011-08-17T03:22:00.000-07:00

DIRGAHAYU TANAH AIRKU, INDONESIA!

2011-08-17T01:07:00.000-07:00

my mom has made me laugh, wiped my tears, hugged me tight, saved my life, watched me succeed, seen me fail, cheered me on, kept me going strong, put up with my mood swings, has said everything will be alright when things get tough, keeps me sane. My mom is a promise from God that I'll have a friend forever :) I love you and always have.

2011-06-01T10:02:00.001-07:00

I love you, Harry Shum Jr

2011-05-15T21:22:00.001-07:00

hongkong, taiwan, melbourne, seattle, san fransisco!
its been 2 years and I miss you guys berrymuch:)

2011-05-10T01:27:00.000-07:00

my favorite all time funny video :)

satu lagi, klik ini

2011-05-08T09:56:00.001-07:00

No one can love you like a mom can
No one gives advice like a mom can
If you're a girl, she can help you with your make up
If you're a guy, she can help you with your break up
Moms will love you unconditionally
Right or wrong, next to you she'll be
If something ever happened to her child
She'd swim through the ocean, and run through the fire
That's a mom, that's my mom,
Happy mother's day dear all mothers in the world!

2011-05-04T09:28:00.000-07:00

this is so true :(

2011-05-04T09:09:00.000-07:00

when my boyfriend asked me "Why do you love me?" I was stunned for having no reasons. It clearly indicates that he wants me to sweep him off their feet with obviously genuine and meaningful flattering words. but sometimes it becomes difficult to answer these spur of the moment questions even though I am in deep love with him.

but probably, these are the closest answers I could give :

* I can be myself when I am with you
* You bring out the best in me
* I can be clumsy and foolish when I am with you, yet know that your love for me will never diminish
* We can talk about everything or nothing--it's always okay with you
* When you listen, I know you're really listening and not just waiting for your turn to talk
* You always know just how to spoil me
* You're the one who makes happiness happen
* Whenever I need it most you're there with your all-purpose hugs
* I admire your faith to me, it means a lot to me.

2011-05-02T22:45:00.000-07:00

beautiful :)

Fleet Foxes - Grown Ocean from Fleet Foxes on Vimeo.

2011-05-02T09:12:00.000-07:00

nostalgia, remember these much?

2011-04-19T09:21:00.000-07:00

as simple as that.

2011-04-02T11:01:00.000-07:00

EARRINGS.

gue koleksi anting dari sd. tapi sayangnya uda banyak yang ilang dan kebuang waktu pindah rumah, jadi sekarang baru mulai koleksi lagi. ini beberapa yang gue punya, kebanyakan hadiah. ada beberapa yang beli di thailand juga. semoga besok-besok dikasih anting lagi dari orang2 HAHAHA, happy sunday everyone, be merry!

2011-03-27T09:14:00.000-07:00

just found this guy, charming much

2011-03-11T08:55:00.000-08:00

2011-03-07T08:26:00.000-08:00

recent loves!

2011-03-02T13:22:00.001-08:00

minggu lalu, pertama kalinya kelas pagi setelah sekian lama. dari melek mata uda ngedumel terus. 'kenapa kelas pagi sih?' 'ngantuk banget gila!' 'semoga kelas tiba2 dicancel!' dan lain2nya.

pas keluar rumah mau masuk mobil, gue ngeliat pemulung di komplek rumah gue. udah tua, kakinya pincang, dan buat jalan aja susah. tapi pagi-pagi buta gitu dia uda susah payah kerja, meskipun cuma mungut barang-barang bekas, dan hasilnya gak seberapa. tapi dia tetep semangat.

berasa ditampar, PLAK!

ada orang yang berjuang keras untuk hidup, biarpun punya kekurangan fisik. gue? cuma bangun pagi aja gak rela, padahal dikasih kemudahan fisik buat jalan, buat napas, buat ngelakuin hal-hal yang kita mau lakuin. well, I thank the old poor man for making me realise, that i'm blessed.

2011-02-27T11:52:00.000-08:00

2011-02-26T10:47:00.000-08:00

new and happiness.

term 1 report

new harddiskkkk kyaaaaaa

new blackberry silicon (kayak bendera banget yah)

nylon ny akirnya dibuat di indonesia! baru dua edisi dan khas bgt, me likey likey likey

birthday present from a friend of mine :3

heart-shaped baloons in red and pink for vals

cutie cupcakes dari oliv-vio, krim keju di atasnya enaaak bgt!

new patrick doll, he's so fluffy!

i am turning twenty this 22nd february, and i really am uber-gaaaay for the morning surprise, for the birthday dinner, for the presents, for the greetings and wishes, for 3 birthday cakes, and 2 package of cupcakes, for another surprise at night, i am thankful and as happy as can be.

2011-02-19T11:02:00.000-08:00

maret 2009, gue memutuskan untuk nggak lanjutin kuliah gue kemarin di limkokwing. gue punya banyak alesan untuk nggak lanjutin. salah satunya adalah karena keadaan disana yang kurang aman untuk cewek, khususnya orang asia. dan kedua, gue emang terlalu buru-buru pertamanya untuk netepin akan kuliah disana. dulu, gue pikir asik banget kalo bisa satu kampus sama temen yang uda gue kenal dan nyambung, Rangga. dan dengan jarak malaysia-indonesia yang gak gitu jauh, gue bisa sering bolak balik, and i found there wasnt any problem at all. gue ambil keputusan kuliah disitu tanpa mikirin mateng-mateng ntarnya bakal gimana.

dan di tengah-tengah kuliah, gue menyesal.

sempet akhirnya gue mutusin untuk lanjut aja di Malaysia karna uda tanggung dan banyak yang kontra kalo gue berenti di tengah jalan. tapi emang hati gak bisa boong, di hari gue mutusin untuk lanjut, di hari itu juga gue sakit, demam, dan harus bed rest, padahal gue gak kecapean gak salah makan, gak ada apa-apa. pas bed rest itu gue sadar, kalo apa yang kita lakukan itu gak sesuai apa yang sama hati kita mau, ntah gimana tubuh lu akan berkonspirasi untuk menolaknya secara diam-diam.

dan sekarang, gue udah pindah ke kampus yang baru. guess what? I AM HAPPIER THAN BEFORE. gue puas sama semuanya. emang ini yang gue mau, emang ini yang pengen gue pelajarin, dan disini uda pas tempatnya. dulu, gue gak pernah semangat berangkat ke kampus. seasik apapun hari itu dulu, gue gak pernah sesemangat sekarang. emang yang sekarang lebih berat, secara kurikulum kuliah biasa dibikin cepet jadi cuma 2 tahun. tapi gue percaya, seberat apapun yang gue jalanin sekarang, kalo gue jalaninnya pake hati, ntah gimana caranya gue pasti bisa nyelesainnya.

pada akhirnya gue cuma mau bilang : a man's life is a series of choices, follow your heart whenever you should make a decision. because your brain might be smarter, but your heart always wins.

2011-02-15T08:47:00.000-08:00

I dont have to celebrate valentine's day,
since I got you, everyday.

2011-02-13T09:12:00.000-08:00

you should stop complaining, before your life gets boring
and instead of it, please start being Thankful ;')))

I AM THANKFUL :

FOR THE WIFE
WHO SAYS IT'S HOT DOGS TONIGHT,
BECAUSE SHE IS HOME WITH ME,
AND NOT OUT WITH SOMEONE ELSE.

FOR THE HUSBAND
WHO IS ON THE SOFA
BEING A COUCH POTATO,
BECAUSE HE IS HOME WITH ME
AND NOT OUT AT THE BARS.

FOR THE TEENAGER
WHO IS COMPLAINING ABOUT DOING DISHES
BECAUSE IT MEANS SHE IS AT HOME,
NOT ON THE STREETS.

FOR THE TAXES I PAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM EMPLOYED.

FOR THE MESS TO CLEAN AFTER A PARTY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE
BEEN SURROUNDED BY FRIENDS.

FOR THE CLOTHES THAT FIT A LITTLE TOO SNUG
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE ENOUGH TO EAT.

FOR MY SHADOW THAT WATCHES ME WORK
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM OUT IN THE SUNSHINE

FOR A LAWN THAT NEEDS MOWING,
WINDOWS THAT NEED CLEANING,
AND GUTTERS THAT NEED FIXING
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE A HOME.

FOR ALL THE COMPLAINING
I HEAR ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT
BECAUSE IT MEANS
WE HAVE FREEDOM OF SPEECH..

FOR THE PARKING SPOT
I FIND AT THE FAR END OF THE PARKING LOT
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM CAPABLE OF WALKING
AND I HAVE BEEN BLESSED WITH TRANSPORTATION.

FOR MY HUGE HEATING BILL
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I AM WARM.

FOR THE LADY BEHIND ME IN CHURCH
WHO SINGS OFF KEY BECAUSE IT MEANS
I CAN HEAR.

FOR THE PILE OF LAUNDRY AND IRONING
BECAUSE IT MEANS
I HAVE CLOTHES TO WEAR.

FOR WEARINESS AND ACHING MUSCLES
AT THE END OF THE DAY
BECAUSE IT MEANS I HAVE BEEN
CAPABLE OF WORKING HARD.

FOR THE ALARM THAT GOES OFF
IN THE EARLY MORNING HOURS
BECAUSE IT MEANS I AM ALIVE.

2011-02-11T10:05:00.000-08:00

you make me miss christmas,even more

2011-02-09T11:31:00.000-08:00

I need you to close your eyes,and listen to these two pretty songs. they soothe my soul softly, now your turn.

2011-02-01T09:48:00.000-08:00

the sweetest thing,ever

"I'm not gonna get down on one knee
I'm not gonna ask you a question
I love you, Meredith Grey
and I wanna spend the rest of my life,
with you"

2011-01-30T17:59:00.000-08:00

:')

introduce her, Vania,my bestfriend, responding one of Gabe Bondoc's song, You're It. SUBSCRIBE HER!

2011-01-11T10:16:00.000-08:00

LIFE'S GOOOOOOOOOD!

hey semuanya, im back! setelah sekian lama gak pernah ngupdate blog akirnya gue memutuskan utk pending tugas dan buka blogger.com. seperti judul gue, life's been pretty good for me. gue uda balik ke rumah lama (yg direnovasi wkt itu) dan gue punya kamar baru and it turns out to be my fav corner in my house :D

disini, gue post foto-foto beberapa bagian di kamar baru gue, dan (tentunya) furniture2 baru yang gue order sesuai keinginan gue. gue sengaja pilih putih karna putih classy dan bersih, tapi ada bbrp yg tetep warna merah (warna paporito), terus beberapa furniture jg multifungsi. karena gue gak suka terlalu banyak furniture di kamar dan simple aja. satu furniture bisa jadi beberapa fungsi. so here they are :'))

meja belajar + lampu meja installed

dua buku terakhir yang gue baca

seal dari jelo + stationery case yg sangat religi

speaker baru yg kayak telor +foto bayi gue (buntel abis)

you guys stuck here and in my heart.

ranjang baru, tapi spreinya lagi gembel abis

meja belajar gue yg ditransform jadi meja gambar

tampak samping

new clothes hanger

tong sampah yang terlalu feminin, ya gak sih?

my 17th birthday present from bestfriends, ugh love it

lemari baju yang tetep merah

keseluruhan meja belajar, maap berantakan hehe

gordyn baru yg sangat halus

suka banget sama iketannya, gak tau knp

and brand new ac, with ECO patrol woohoo

my bedroom sticker, looks childish ya -____-

laci-laci di bawah ranjang. multifunction

tebak apa hayoooo

tadaaa! meja rias sekaligus meja samping ranjang

overall looks

last but not least, a brand new comfy office chair ;)

2011-01-01T07:58:00.000-08:00

01.01.11

setaun lalu cepet banget berlalu, probably the fastest year ive been thru in my life. happy new year buat kita semua, semoga taun 2011 jadi tahun paling berkesan. makin yang baik2 lagi dan tentunya sukses dalam cinta karier kesehatan dll.
may happiness comes to our lives ;')

2010-11-28T07:58:00.000-08:00

blaaaaaaaa.

some of my drawings these days. yg kuda gue nyontek punya orang bule yg gambar tanpa salah pake drawing pen dan spidol. hebat ya, pdhl gue pake pensil aja ngapuuuuuuus terus. oya ada satu quote dari Walt Disney yg gue suka banget : ' You reach a point where you don't work for money.' AMEN TO THAT :) gue pengen someday akan sampe ke point itu. well, have a funtastic week everyone :*

2010-11-27T09:03:00.000-08:00

CURRENTLY LOVING.

2010-11-17T08:11:00.000-08:00

beautiful prayer :)

Heavenly Father, Help us remember that the jerk who cut us off in traffic last night is a single mother who worked nine hours that day and is rushing home to cook dinner, help with homework, do the laundry and spend a few precious moments with her children.

Help us to remember that the pierced, tattooed, disinterested young man who can’t make change correctly is a worried 19-year-old college student, balancing his apprehension over final exams with his fear of not getting his student loans for next semester.

Remind us, Lord, that the scary looking bum, begging for money in the same spot every day (who really ought to get a job!) is a slave to addictions that we can only imagine in our worst nightmares.

Help us to remember that the old couple walking annoyingly slow through the store aisles and blocking our shopping progress are savoring this moment , knowing that, based on the biopsy report she got back last week, this will be the last year that they go shopping together.

Heavenly Father, remind us each day that, of all the gifts you give us, the greatest gift is love. It is not enough to share that love with those we hold dear. Open our hearts not to just those who are close to us, but to all humanity. Let us be slow to judge and quick to forgive, show patience, empathy and love.

2010-11-09T08:23:00.000-08:00

another genius guy

go to his site : www.pogomix.net

2010-11-06T11:32:00.000-07:00

it was our finest afternoon in the miserable days. me and my boyf quickly decided to go to a convenient place where we can lay down our depressed mind body and soul. I was tired and sick with things that went lately those days. He was like feeling the same thing too..so yeah, here we were in the edge of Pantai Mutiara near the industrial area. we wondered much and spoke comfortably in silence, accompanied by light breeze and the noon-sun that was going to sink. This is the moment where I realize much that I dont care about the worst thing happened in my life as long as I got you.

I need these worth-time. I need to be convinced about this statement again and again.

anyway, we got something in common, that we usually let us being separated on the weekend to test how much we miss each other the day after. you know what, i think it works. silly but surely works for us sometimes. we know we dont miss each other on the days we meet all the time, but for-letting-us-spend-our-weekend-separated kills us all the time. so here I am, missing you all over again.

2010-11-03T13:48:00.000-07:00

enaderr dra-weeeengs.

forget to say ; HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE! (31/10)
and this woman i drew, pictures approx my halloween appearance desire, hihi

lelaki buaya darat. *gakjelas
ballet shoes :)

2010-10-31T10:47:00.001-07:00

i do when i get bored.

2010-10-28T11:30:00.000-07:00

perseverance.

mungkin kalian sama kayak gue, sering ngerasa nyerah sama tugas sama pelajaran sama kuliah sama kerjaan dll. muak banget sama semua hal, dan kesel kenapa gak ada abis2nya. gue yakin manusia gak ada yang jiwa dan raganya sekuat baja. nangis di saat fed up dan kesel, adalah cara yang paling pas. selain lebih lega, somehow abis nangis, ntah kenapa diri kita jadi lebih kuat dan semangat.

tapi gue gak akan nyuruh lu semua nangis terus untuk semua kemuakan yang lu hadepin. tenang aja, hal kyk gitu sifatnya temporary kok, keep going and dont ever give up! and remember these quotes :

Just don't give up trying to do what you really want to do. Where there's love and inspiration, I don't think you can go wrong.
-- Ella Fitzgerald

It does not matter how slowly you go so long as you do not stop.
-- Confucius

I think a hero is an ordinary individual who finds strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles.
-- Christopher Reeve

Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can.
-- Author Unknown

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
-- Thomas Edison

Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.
-- Dale Carnegie

Never give up on something that you can't go a day without thinking about.
-- Author Unknown

Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish.
-- John Quincy Adams

Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish.
-- John Quincy Adams

When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.
-- Author Unknown

You've got to say, I think that if I keep working at this and want it badly enough I can have it. It's called perseverance.
-- Lee Iacocca

2010-10-27T11:03:00.000-07:00

9x-7i > 3(3x-7u)

= 9x - 7i < 3 (3x -7u)
= 9x - 7i < 9x - 21u
= -7i < -21u
simplified: i < 3 u !
therefore: I love you !

2010-10-17T10:34:00.001-07:00

what made your day?

for me, besides a warm yet loveable conversation with loved ones, good music totally completely made my day. i love exploring any random songs that appear in the suggestion list on youtube everytime i check on some new songs. and somehow, those random songs would be my forever-and ever-favorite-songs and last lifetime in my itunes. they boost my mood instantly. and oh, these are some of them which i just talked about. enjoy :D

2010-10-14T12:35:00.000-07:00

God may provide solutions, resolutions to the problem WAY beyond what you imagined possible. So, lets have a faith start from today.

2010-10-13T14:09:00.001-07:00

dan sangat gak sabar nonton ini :)

2010-10-13T13:21:00.000-07:00

i fancy this all the time

I am surrounded by couples who own successful marriages. my parents are one of them. my grandparents are having their 50th wedding anniversary on January 2011. however, the good thing that fancy me all the time is that there isnt any divorce thing in my religion, which is Catholic Roma. as bible said 'What therefore God has joined together, let not man separate.' (Matthew 9 : 6) isnt it pretty?

and ive learned from my parents that 'a successful marriage requires falling in love so many times, but with the same person.' God doesnt promise you a rainbow all the time, but a companion who will be there for what you are every single day.

here is the prettiest wedding vow ever,

Dear my constant friend, my faithful partner and my love from this day forward. In the presence of God, our family and friends, I offer you my solemn vow to be your faithful partner in sickness and in health, in good times and in bad, and in joy as well as in sorrow. I promise to love you unconditionally, to support you in your goals, to honor and respect you, to laugh with you and cry with you, and to cherish you when life seems easy and when it seems hard. These things I give to you today, and all the days of our life till death do us apart.

(toloooooooong, gue kebanyakan buka axioo dan kawan2nya. jadi kreji kawinan gini..hahaha brb garuk tanah)

2010-10-13T00:19:00.000-07:00

this is a promise.

WHAT DO I SEE IN THE NEXT 10 YEARS

number one, ill be a successful animator/creative director alive. working in the famous international production house (or establish my own, probably) me and my partners will create hundreds of well-known cartoon animation movies/advs.

number two, ill be waking up everyday with a right man sleeping next to me who marry me with his unconditional love. we'll have great daughters and sons. and living an everlasting happy life for ever.

number three, my mum and dad should live in a same country with me. and they will be healthy so that they will (still) be taking care of me and my kids as well.

number four, my faith to jesus will stay for years by years, and wont ever change.

2010-10-12T11:47:00.000-07:00

ngik nguk akirnya jadi nih undangan geje buat tugas olive. keliatan banget ya kengasalan duniawi gw secara rumputnya blekerekek gitu gak jelas hahaha tapi yg penting kelar deh jadi bisa tidur, good night worldie :*

2010-10-09T02:10:00.000-07:00

never imagine life without you.

2010-10-08T10:57:00.000-07:00

hello there :)

abis ganti blogskin nih. bikin sendiri iseng hehe dan tulisannya sungguh menjijikan ya, a great wisher who possess big dreams. PRET! anyways, life's been pretty hard for me so far. abis jatoh dr tangga sampe memar sebulan lalu, trus gw harus operasi gigi (lagi) yang sakitnya amat mematikan. bokap jg lagi sakit luka usus. tapi gw yakin sih semuanya bakal normal lagi, amin.

hmm gw uda beberapa hari ini kangen banget sama orang ini. namanya pak andi djoenaidi.

dan dia bukan mantan pacar, atau selingkuhan atau apa loh hahaha..dia mantan guru les pelajaran gue. orang terakhir yang yakinin kalo gue gak bodoh. yang selalu semangatin gue kalo roboh dalam pelajaran dan cinta. orang ini yang menyelamatkan gue dari sma dan uan dan yakin kalo gue bisa ngelewatinnya. orang ini yang bikin ada angka 9,25 di ijazah pada pelajaran yang paling mustahil gue bisa, kimia.

yang paling penting, orang inilah yang paling membentuk karakter gue sekarang. karna di masa2 down dalam pelajaran dan sekolah, kelabilan remaja dan putus cinta, dia ada disitu dengan sabar. selalu kasih quote, dorongan, dan cerita yang positif. dan kalo blog gue isinya suka memotivasi, gue belajar dari dia, belajar banyak.

ada satu quote yg gak pernah gue lupa dari dia : live life without fear, confront all obstacles and know that you can overcome them.

simple one tapi selalu ngena. tiap hari berat yang akan gue lalui, gw inget kalimat ini trus dan jadi semangat lagi. sampe sekarang, kalo kita mampu bertahan berdiri dengan dua kaki kita, percaya ada orang hebat di belakang sana yang mendidik dan menuntun kita untuk ke tahap kuat dan jadi diri kita sekarang. thank you Pak Andi :)

2010-10-02T11:25:00.000-07:00

ini gak cuma buat pasangan aja loh. contoh yg paling konkret adalah dua orang yang ada dari kita lahir sampe sekarang, orang tua kita. kadang cara orang tua menyayangi kita selalu kita cela dan gak terima. dari cara mereka ngelarang kita pulang malem, cara mereka ngomentarin baju kita buat ngedate, cara mereka membatasi ini itu.

padahal, mereka ngelakuin semua itu sebatas menyayangi dan melindungi kita. mungkin caranya kita gak suka, tapi itu yg terbaik yang bisa mereka berikan. try to respect what your parents have done to you, because they are worth it and of course, they love you with all they have. happy sunday everyone :)

2010-09-28T07:57:00.001-07:00

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside
because you're close in heart.

2010-09-27T02:22:00.000-07:00

shawty's love is like a pyramid
we stand together till the very end
there'll never be another love for sure
iyaz and charice here we go

stones heavy like the love you've shown
solid as the ground we've known
and i just wanna carry on
we took it from the bottom up
and even in a desert storm
sturdy as a rock we hold
wishing every moment froze
now i just wanna let you know
earthquakes can't shake us
cyclones can't break us
hurricanes can't take away our love

pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep on goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey
like a pyramid, like a pyramid hey

cold never ever when you're close
we will never let it fall
a story that was never told
something like a mystery
and every step we've took we grown
look how fast the time has flown
a journey to the place unknown
we're going down in history
earthquakes can't shake us
cyclones can't break us
hurricanes can't take away our love

pyramid, we've built this on a solid rock
it feels just like it's heaven's touch
together at the top (at the top baby) like a pyramid
and even when the wind is blowin
we'll never fall just keep it goin
forever we will stay like a pyramid

like a pyramid girl i'ma show you
that i love you so much that we're gonna get through
even when it storms i will never go
i'ma be the one to keep you safe
before was a love i care more than enough
holding on to one another be the cover when it's rough
mother nature, or disaster won't stop our happy ever after

2010-09-21T00:28:00.000-07:00

AYO BACAAA :)

Lima tahun usia pernikahanku dengan Ellen sungguh masa yang sulit.
Semakin hari semakin tidak ada kecocokan diantara kami.
Kami bertengkar karena hal-hal kecil. Karena Ellen lambat membukakan pagar saat aku pulang kantor.

Karena meja sudut di ruang keluarga yang ia beli tanpa membicarakannya denganku, bagiku itu hanya membuang uang saja.

Hari ini, 27 Agustus adalah ulang tahun Ellen. Kami bertengkar pagi ini karena Ellen kesiangan membangunkanku. Aku dan aku tak mengucapkan selamat ulang tahun padanya, kecupan di keningnya yang biasa kulakukan di hari ulang tahunnya tak mau kulakukan.

Malam sekitar pukul 7, Ellen sudah 3 kali menghubungiku untuk memintaku segera pulang dan makan malam bersamanya, tentu saja permintaannya tidak kuhiraukan.

Jam menunjukkan pukul 10 malam, aku merapikan meja kerjaku dan beranjak pulang. Hujan turun sangat deras, sudah larut malam tapi jalan di tengah kota Jakarta masih saja macet, aku benar-benar dibuat kesal oleh keadaan.

Membayangkan pulang dan bertemu dengan Ellen membuatku semakin kesal! Akhirnya aku sampai juga di rumah pukul 12 malam, dua jam perjalanan kutempuh yang biasanya aku hanya membutuhkan waktu 1 jam untuk sampai di rumah.

Kulihat Ellen tertidur di sofa ruang keluarga. Sempat aku berhenti di hadapannya dan memandang wajahnya. “Ia sungguh cantik” kataku dalam hati, “Wanita yang menjalin hubungan dengan kuselama 7 tahun sejak duduk di bangku SMA yang kini telah kunikahi selama 5 tahun, tetap saja cantik”. Aku menghela nafas dan meninggalkannya pergi, aku ingat kalau aku sedang kesal sekali dengannya. Aku langsung masuk ke kamar. Di meja rias istriku kulihat buku itu, buku coklat tebal yang dimiliki oleh istriku.

Bertahun-tahun Ellen menulis cerita hidupnya pada buku coklat itu.
Sejak sebelum menikah, tak pernah ia ijinkan aku membukanya. Inilah saatnya! Aku tak mempedulikan Ellen, kuraih buku coklat itu dan kubuka halaman demi halaman secara acak.

14 Februari 1996. Terima kasih Tuhan atas pemberianMu yang berarti bagiku, Vincent, pacar pertamaku yang akan menjadi pacar terakhirku..
Hmm. aku tersenyum, Ellen yakin sekali kalau aku yang akan menjadi suaminya.

6 September 2001, Tak sengaja kulihat Vincent makan malam dengan wanita lain sambil tertawa mesra. Tuhan, aku mohon agar Vincent tidak pindah ke lain hati.
Jantungku serasa mau berhenti…

23 Oktober 2001, Aku menemukan surat ucapan terima kasih untukVincent, atas candle light dinner di hari ulang tahun seorang wanita dengan nama Melly. Siapakah dia Tuhan? Bukakanlah mataku untuk apa yang Kau kehendaki agar aku ketahui.
Jantungku benar-benar mau berhenti. Melly, wanita yang sempat dekat denganku disaat usia hubunganku dengan Ellen telah mencapai 5 tahun. Melly, yang karenanya aku hampir saja mau memutuskan hubunganku dengan Ellen karena kejenuhanku. Aku telah memutuskan untuk tidak bertemu dengan Melly lagi setelah dekat dengannya selama 4 bulan, dan memutuskan untuk tetap setia kepada Ellen. Aku sungguh tak menduga kalau Ellen mengetahui hubunganku dengan Melly.

4 Januari 2002, Aku dihampiri wanita bernama Melly, Ia menghinaku dan mengatakan Vincent telah selingkuh dengannya. Tuhan, beri aku kekuatan yang berasal daripadaMu.
Bagaimana mungkin Ellen sekuat itu, ia tak pernah mengatakan apapun atau menangis di hadapanku setelah mengetahui aku telah menghianatinya. Aku tahu Melly, dia pasti telah membuat hati Ellen sangat terluka dengan kata-kata tajam yang keluar dari mulutnya.
Nafasku sesak, tak mampu kubayangkan apa yang Ellen rasakan saat itu.

14 Februari 2002, Vincent melamarku di hari jadi kami yang ke-6.
Tuhan apa yang harus kulakukan? Berikan aku tanda untuk keputusan yang harus kuambil. 14 Februari 2003, Hari minggu yang luar biasa, aku telah menjadi Nyonya Alexander Vincent Winoto. Terima kasih Tuhan!

18 Juli 2005, Pertengkaran pertama kami sebagai keluarga.
Aku harap aku tak kemanisan lagi membuatkan teh untuknya. Tuhan, bantu aku agar lebih berhati-hati membuatkan teh untuk suamiku.

7 April 2006, Vincent marah padaku, aku tertidur pulas saat ia pulang kantor sehingga ia menunggu di depan rumah agak lama. Seharian aku berada mall mencari jam idaman Vincent, aku ingin membelikan jam itu di hari ulang tahunnya yang tinggal 2 hari lagi. Tuhan, beri kedamaian di hati Vincent agar ia tidak marah lagi padaku, aku tak akan tidur di sore hari lagi kalau Vincent belum pulang walaupun aku lelah.

Aku mulai menangis, Ellen mencoba membahagiakanku tapi aku malah memarahinya tanpa mau mendengarkan penjelasannya. Jam itu adalah jam kesayanganku yang kupakai sampai hari ini, tak kusadari ia membelikannya dengan susah payah.

15 November 2007, Vincent butuh meja untuk menaruh kopi di ruang keluarga, dia sangat suka membaca di sudut ruang itu. Tuhan, bantu aku menabung agar aku dapat membelikan sebuah meja, hadiah Natal untuk Vincent.

Aku tak dapat lagi menahan tangisanku, Ellen tak pernah mengatakan meja itu adalah hadiah Natal untukku. Ya, ia memang membelinya di malam Natal dan menaruhnya hari itu juga di ruang keluarga.
Aku sudah tak sanggup lagi membuka halaman berikutnya. Ellen sungguh diberi kekuatan dari Tuhan untuk mencintaiku tanpa syarat.

Aku berlari keluar kamar, kukecup kening Ellen dan ia terbangun.
“Maafkan aku Ellen, Aku mencintaimu, Selamat ulang tahun.”

2010-09-18T10:08:00.000-07:00

the truths are.

we are only human. we cry when we are sad, we laugh when we are happy. we have flaws,we love and possess.

we are only human. we have empathy and sympathy. we are being moved and inspired by other people, but we rarely do something to inspire others. we are followers.

we are only human. we live with hypocracy and cynicism. we might get jealous and envy. we curse and we hate people. we break other hearts.

we are only human. when people hurt us, we curse them to get BIG karma. we pray all night long to see them suffer.

we are only human. we have selfishness. we dont care about others as long as we're happy. we date our friend's lover because we love him/her, without thinking what our friend feels. we take what we don't deserve. we lie. we do wrong things to get rich, pretty and gain our social life. WE TALK BULLSHITS.

the bad thing is.. WE ARE ONLY HUMAN. SOMETIMES WE ARE HEARTLESS AND BRAINLESS. admit it, people.

2010-09-17T10:06:00.000-07:00

3 fav videos, so far.

1. Vampire Weekend - A Punk (can't wait to see their live performance on oct 24th)

2. Panic! At The Disco - The Green Gentleman

3. Jamie Cullum - I'm All Over It

2010-09-13T09:25:00.000-07:00

triple like.

2010-09-13T09:17:00.000-07:00

People are like stained glass windows.
They sparkle and shine when the sun is out,
but when the darkness sets in,
their true beauty is revealed only if there is a light from within.

2010-09-06T08:13:00.000-07:00

im trying.

Love Your Enemies!

you have to admit this is a pretty radical concept...

“You have heard the law that says, ‘Love your neighbor’ and hate your enemy. But I say, love your enemies! Pray for those who persecute you! In that way, you will be acting as true children of your Father in heaven. For he gives his sunlight to both the evil and the good, and he sends rain on the just and the unjust alike. If you love only those who love you, what reward is there for that? Even corrupt tax collectors do that much. If you are kind only to your friends, how are you different from anyone else?"

-Matthew 5 : 43-47.

2010-09-02T09:51:00.000-07:00

sweetest video ever :)

2010-09-01T09:54:00.000-07:00

ayo refleksi!

buat yang gak tau, negara kita lagi konflik sama Malaysia (lagi), dan berdatanganlah hujatan-hujatan untuk SBY karena dianggap gak becus ngurusin negara. gue prihatin banget sama yang kayak gini, yang bisanya menghujat besar-besaran tanpa aksi besar-besaran.

padahal SBY uda bawa perubahan yang sangat besar buat negara kita. nih salah satunya : dana BOS untuk siswa SD-SMP biar dapet pendidikan gratis, Bantuan Langsung Tunai ke daerah-daerah. swasembada pangan, melunasi hutang Indonesia pada IMF, konsolidasi demokrasi, revitalisasi kredit, stabilitas makro ekonomi, penyediaan air bersih untuk rakyat miskin, internet di sekolah-sekolah daerah, membawa Indonesia ke kancah Internasional yang lebih luas, dan lain-lainnya yang masih banyak lagi.

yang lebih hebatnya lagi, Per- Januari 2007, gaji Kepala BRR (pejabat) Rp 60.648.000,-. Bandingkan dengan gaji pokok Presiden SBY yang besarnya Rp.30 jutaan. dengan gaji yang lebih kecil dari pejabat, SBY tetep memilih lanjut terus jadi presiden yang tugasnya lebih rumit. Kalo dipikir-pikir, kalo mau SBY juga bisa jadi businessman dengan gaji yang lebih gede kan? tapi apa? SBY tetep mempertahankan tugasnya yang sulit ini di tengah hujatan masyarakatnya sendiri.

kita sebagai masyarakat cuma bisa mengomentari banyaknya kekurangan yang berantakan di negara kita. komentar terus, menghujat terus di saat pemimpin kita tetap berdiri tegak mengurus ini-itu dan berusaha berjuang sekeras mungkin. yang kita bisa liat cuma negatifnya doang, tanpa ngeliat seberapa banyak yang SBY uda usahain buat kita. gimana negara ini mau maju kalo masyarakatnya sendiri nggak mendukung pemimpinnya?

coba belajar mandang sesuatu dari segi positif. bukan untuk mengagung-agungkan tapi untuk menghargai. karena manusia gak ada yang sempurna. dan inget, presiden kita itu manusia, bukan Tuhan yang serba-maha. kita sebagai kaum awam yang gak ngerti caranya ngatur negara, coba bersikap lebih besar hati dan tidak menjatuhkan. karena kita gak tau rasanya gimana ngatur 237,6 juta jiwa. ngatur diri sendiri aja belum becus.

before you judge people, walk in their shoes.

2010-08-29T12:47:00.000-07:00

Oh, your heart may long for love that is more near
So, when I'm gone these words will be here
To ease every fear
And dry up every tear
And make it very clear
I kiss you and I know
It is love from the first
Time I press my lips against yours
Thinking, "Oh, is it love?"

2010-08-27T09:52:00.000-07:00

2010-08-27T08:15:00.000-07:00

once again, be thankful :) because you are beautiful, and you are gorgeous just the way you are.

2010-08-25T03:53:00.000-07:00

i read this article this morning and thought i should probably share here, read until finish :)

Love everyone and everything, without attaching strings and without judging them.

Have personal regard and respect for the people you meet. Treat them as equals and not inferior or superior in any way.

Work on the principle that everyone is, at heart, good. Assume that although they may do questionable things, the person underneath is fundamentally pure.

If you love someone unconditionally, then you cannot judge or blame them or find them bad.

Unconditional love works well in relationships too. If you do not put conditions on your partner, then you open the doors for a much more fulfilling and trusting relationship.

If universal unconditional love is difficult for you, start with your family and people you know. Or just try it in a single conversation.

Unconditional love means love without condition. It means giving love without expecting anything in return, including any reciprocal love.

This can be a difficult route to happiness, yet it is one where a great deal of happiness can be found. The more you can stretch your love, the happier you can be.

Unconditional love is nothing to do with romance. It does not want anything from the other person, though it may want everything for them. It is not about desire and possession; it is about appreciation and concern.

Unconditional love is something to do with parenting, yet parents want so much for and from their children that much of their relationship is far from conditional.

One principle, from the field of psychoanalysis is that we have an inner true self that is too vulnerable to expose, so we cover it up with the mask of a false self. Unconditional love is of the true self. Perhaps also it comes from the true self. In this way, it may be considered as the most real and truthful form of affection.

By showing you care about that inner core, you can get much closer to the person and connect with them in a more truthful and rewarding way.

get this article from : The neural basis of unconditional love. Psychiatry Research,172(2):93-8

here is my opinion : a good friend of mine told me that 'love may fade away, but the commitment stays.' but I disagree with this statement. at this point you might think it's right. but I think, the situation is people may get bored with 'the relationship' but not with the person. because I had figure it out, thing which make the commitment stays is an unconditional love. without unconditional love, you may not be able to stand thousand days with the same person, commitment has nothing to do with it. without that, people won't be 'really' with someone through the bad, they just want the good. trust me, all the successful marriages need an unconditional love to survive.

so, after you meet someone who you think a worth-loving one, why cant you give him/her an unconditional love for free?

Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous, love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offense, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people’s sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end -1 Corinthians 13:4

2010-08-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

God answers prayers in a way He knows what you truly deserve. Have faith and always be thankful :)

2010-08-23T12:07:00.000-07:00

Love is not blind; it is an extra eye, which shows us what is most worthy of regard.

thanks for giving me your extra eye and put a smile on my face all over the year. and, happy anniversary ♥

2010-08-19T09:10:00.000-07:00

halo semua, ini earphone kesayangan saya. biarpun murah, suaranya suka sember, dan kadang2 gak bersahabat klo volumenya gede, tapi gue selalu pake tiap hari. colok ke itouch, ke laptop, ke tipi, ke idung klo lg gatel hahaha jk..

tapi..hari ini gw menemukan dia tidak berdaya. yang 'left' gak keluar suara lg dan gue amat sangat sedih. bukan karena bakal gak bisa beli lagi (ga mungkin bgt secara cuma 27rb) tp karena beberapa hari ini gue pake semena-mena kalo abis pake. gue taro di lantai, keinjek2 adek gue, taro di bawah bantal, keinjek2 bantal gue biarpun bantal gak punya kaki. trus bececeran dimana-mana kayak makanan ayam.. trus rusak gitu aja.

bikin gue berpikir..ini cuma barang doang loh tapi nyesek juga karena gue gak menjaganya baik-baik. kalo gue gak semena-mena, mungkin si earphone merah kesayangan ini bisa bertahan setaun lagi?tiga taun lagi?atau lebih?

NAH apalagi orang, yang notabene punya perasaan, bukan sekedar raga dan fisik doang. harus ekstra hati-hati dan bener-bener dijaga kalo masih pengen punya orang itu setaun lagi, tiga taun lagi, selamanya.

2010-08-14T10:18:00.000-07:00

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there's something about us I want to say
Cause there's something between us anyway

I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there's something about us I've got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I'll miss you more than anyone in my life
I love you more than anyone in my life

2010-08-14T08:47:00.000-07:00

thank you to The CocaCola Company for inventing and keep producing Minute Maid, Pulpy Orange :)

2010-08-14T08:25:00.000-07:00

ayo rame-rame kesini!

www.jakartabluesfestival.com (click me)

2010-08-12T02:18:00.000-07:00

Things that come for free are the most expensive in life.

such as : family, bestfriends, lover and their great love to us.
so : keep them wisely, dont ever lose it. be faithful to them.
in the end : you will always have these most expensive things forever.

2010-08-10T14:25:00.000-07:00

this is Marry Me by Train. i tried to find a better video. but i think Train doesnt make any of official video for this track, but you should listen to this song :)

2010-08-08T10:40:00.000-07:00

when someone have a faith on you why dont you have any to yourself?

ps:click on picture for bigger display;)

2010-08-06T12:27:00.000-07:00

big hello :)

gue bukan orang yang religius. nggak selalu nyelipin kata Tuhan di setiap kalimat2 gue, sama sekali nggak suci, sering bgt ngomong kotor. full of flaws.. tapi...kalo soal faith, I DO really HAVE a big faith on my God.

gue gak pernah ketemu Tuhan. tubuh dan raganya gak eksis di depan mata gue. kalo bisa dibilang, sama orang yang eksis di depan kita aja, yang wujudnya beneran ada di hidup kita aja kita gak bisa segitu percayanya. tapi beda sama yang satu ini..belum pernah liat wujudnya sedikitpun, tapi gue selalu ngerasain gak sendirian di saat gue bener2 ngerasa down. tempat dimana gue bisa mengadu apapun.

a wise man once said, "if you wanna be successful in your life, you can't only rely on what you're doing so hard. but you should always involve God." and this is so true..dalam sebuah masalah, gue pernah nyoba berbagai cara utk nyelesain, but none works. akhirnya, gue memutuskan untuk berserah aja sama yg di atas, dan gak beberapa lama semua yang begitu rumit jadi beres.
semua kekhawatiran, semua ketakutan, semua masalah dan apapun, just share with your God, and I guarantee you'll get the answer, with His beautiful way, and at the very very right time.

so people, DO YOUR BEST and PRAY HARD! two simple steps to happiness :)

2010-07-30T03:09:00.000-07:00

2010-07-28T12:29:00.000-07:00

(best) of the best.

ah kangen banget nulis panjang lebar di blog. kadang ada sejuta hal yg pengen ditulis disini, tapi begitu buka dashboard blog........ jadi gak tau mau tulis apa.

hmm. selama 19 taon ini. ive experienced many things in many ways. such as, the most valuable and loveable thing ever, best friend. seperti yg pernah gue blg, dr tk sd smp sma college kuliah semua sekolah gue beda2. dan hal ini yg bikin gue terus menerus beradaptasi sama orang baru. susaaaaaa bgt loh..kadang gw iri sama yg terus2an dr tk-sma di sekolah yg sama. tapi emg ini keinginan gue, utk selalu pindah2 dan coba semua sekolah.

biarpun begitu, hal ini yg bikin gue lebih pandai menyortir mana temen yg cuma ada buat gue saat gue hura hura doang. mana temen yg ada buat gue di saat hura hura dan nangis-nangis kayak orang stres. yg paling nyakitin tuh, mana temen yang nyari gue subuh-subuh khusus buat cerita kalo ada perlu aja. do i look like a trash bin?

dari sini, gue tau mana yg layak dianggep temen baik, mana yang nggak. luckily, i met those guys. people who make me worth for the very first time. and still remain bestfriends until today :) no one will ever replace them. period.

bagi gue, temen baik tuh kayak noda cat acrylic yang nempel di baju. ketumpahan noda itu secara gak sadar. ada saatnya kepengen banget apus noda itu, karena jengkel, kesel, brantem gak penting. tapi pada akirnya kita tau, noda cat acrylic itu gak bisa diapus, dan akan selamanya disitu.

thanks for being my loyal paint stain, dear my (best) of the best.

2010-07-26T00:36:00.000-07:00

If someone really loves you, then you are a ten. eventho you think you're only a five.

2010-07-21T08:24:00.000-07:00

A sensitive but not sentimental story about a romance involving a mentally challenged young man. Starring Hugh Dancy (Confession of a Shoppaholic) as Adam. He has a neurobiological disorder called Asperger Syndrome, that isolates him due to his difficulties in social interaction and his inability to understand what is on people's minds.

Personally, Im in love with Adam's character in this film. Adam is someone who would do a simple but sweetest thing at once. instead of something splashy, to get people recognition. He would speak everything that crossed his mind, good or bad, right or wrong, honest and frankly. people are fake nowadays, and we need someone like Adam. someone who will tell the truth instead of lying and pretending. because truth hurts, but lies worse.

I want Adam.

you might want to hear the soundtrack. this one is too sweet :)

2010-07-19T09:30:00.000-07:00

AGNES (from Despicable Me)

2010-07-09T10:34:00.000-07:00

some quotes.

Love has thousand ways to give you hurt and pain, but friendship has thousand ways to recover all of them. -Wilson Kanadi

Moving on is NOT about "never looking back"..it's taking a glance at yesterday and noticing how much you've grown since then.

Real love is when nothing is right but it's still perfect. It's when you're mad as hell at him, and you're still counting the minutes until he calls.

Let love come to you, be patient. In fairy tales they don't find each other until the last page :)

People with no failure will never know who their true friends are. Thanks God you did!

There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never has, and who never will. - Stephanie Rae

Every evening I turn my worries over to God. He's going to be up all night anyway.

2010-07-08T09:25:00.000-07:00

fated coincidence

semalem gue nginepan sama 3 temen baik gue. menjelang subuh, yang jadwalnya harusnya kita mau ntn bola bareng Jerman Spanyol, kita malah betah ngobrol ngalur ngidul di kamar. dari yg kecil-kecil kayak kegilaan masa sma, sampe ke cowok, dan akirnya ke satu topik, fated coincidence.

pernah kebayang gak sih kalo yg sekarang kita jalanin tu (dari kuliah, temenan, pacaran) even hal2 yang gak penting yg kita jalanin sekarang tuh terjadi karena fated coincidence? gw jelasin apa itu fated coincidence. coincidence itu artinya kebetulan yang tidak disengaja. dan fated itu ditakdirkan. jadi fated coincidence adalah kebetulan yang tidak disengaja yang sudah ditakdirkan dari sananya.

oke kalian pasti bingung. jadi gini misalnya.

kayak gimana gue bisa kuliah di tempat yg sekarang :

1. secara kebetulan gue masuk ke Univ Limkokwing.
2. secara kebetulan gue memilih foundation-nya di jakarta dulu aja sblm ke malay.
3. secara kebetulan gue ikut trip ke Bali bareng2.
4. secara kebetulan di suatu malam gue ikut ngobrol2 brg dosen di pinggir kolam.
5. secara kebetulan dosen gue yang cewek mau buka2an soal keadaan di malay.
6. secara kebetulan dosen gue menjelaskan gimana kelakuan negro disana terhadap cewek keturunan chinese.
7. secara kebetulan dlm keadaan panik mau pindah kuliah, di saat gue lagi hunting univ2 di jakarta, gue ngelewatin pamflet IDS di depan gedung itu sendiri. (seakan itu kyk sign dr Tuhan buat gue)
8. secara kebetulan sangat mudah mencari website IDS (yg awalnya gue sama sekali gak tau itu apa) dan ironisnya gue baca pamfletnya cm 5 detik.
9. secara kebetulan nyari gedungnya buat tanya2 sangat mudah.
10. secara kebetulan segala proses tes masuk, ujian, dan sgala2nya berjalan lancar.
11. secara kebetulan gue ketrima di saat yang paling tepat. di saat gue butuh kejelasan akan masa depan gue. di titik paling hopeless saat itu.

dan rentetan kejadian yg kebetulan gak disengaja ini merujuk ke sebuah kejadian yg emang uda ditakdirkan buat gue. coba kalo gw jadi ke Malay? mgkn sekarang liburan gw sangat sebentar, karna gw harus urusin ini itu. gak ada waktu buat ketemu temen2 yg lg pulang, gak bisa bantuin keluarga pindah rumah, terancam putus sama pacar, dan lain2 lagi yg mnrt gw lebih merugikan dibanding gw stay di indonesia. dan kampus gw sekarang ternyata reputasi dan lulusannya malah lebih bagus dibanding Limkokwing. THANKS GOD FOR THE FATED COINCIDENCE.

ntar2nya, kalian pasti bakal ngalamin yg namanya fated coincidence kayak gini. emang awalnya kita gak akan sadar kalo kebetulan2 yang terjadi di kehidupan kita bakal pelan2 bawa kita ke suatu titik dimana kita sadar semuanya uda direncain dan ditakdirin buat kita. juga untuk jodoh, karier, dan smua2nya. goodluck for your fated coincidence ya!

anyway, ada yg nanya di chatbox gue kuliah dimana. gue kuliah di IDS webnya www.idseducation.com (dulu namanya digital studio college) letaknya di Rasuna Said, Jakarta Utara. wish me luck guys enroll nya bulan September nih. happy weekend :) thanks for readinggggg folks!

2010-06-29T23:38:00.000-07:00

this is Soul Waver (Malika Ayane) with italian language version. ntah kenapa kalo denger ini, hati jadi damai banget. happy wednesday everyone :)

2010-06-23T07:55:00.000-07:00

there will always be

a "lie" in believe,
"over" in lover,
"end" in friends,
"us" in trust,

and "if" in life.

2010-06-20T10:38:00.000-07:00

pernahkah kau perhatikan dirimu?
apa yang ada di balik bola matamu?
yang terselip di balik lekuk hatimu
di dalam hati nuranimu

mungkinkah kau akui bahwa dirimu itu hanyalah seorang PE NGE CUT.
sepotong jiwa yang penuh dengan bualan dan kesombongan
hanya sebongkah jiwa TER SIK SA.
apakah engkau pembenci?
apakah engkau pencinta?
apakah kau cukup baik untuk mendapat sedikit celah di hidup ini?

mungkinkah kau akui bahwa dirimu itu seorang anak manja yang mengaku dirinya pemberontak
tahukah bahwa dirimu itu hanya seorang pecandu dan tak layak untuk sepotong cinta yg suci
pernahkah kau malu pada dirimu itu?
hingga kau ingin lari dan ingin bersembunyi?

apakah engkau pencinta?
apakah engkau pembenci?
apakah kau cukup baik untuk mendapat sedikit celah di hidup ini?
apakah engkau pencinta?
apakah engkau pembenci?
apakah kau cukup baik untuk mendapat sedikit celah di hidup ini?

emang bener kata orang, kalo kita bisa terbunuh cuma dengan kata-kata. GREAT JOB ANDA!

2010-06-20T09:39:00.000-07:00

i wish i were 3.

2010-06-20T07:23:00.000-07:00

coz all of the stars are fading away, just try not to worry, you'll see them someday.

2010-06-15T01:43:00.000-07:00

Everyone gets knocked down, the question is: Will you get back up?

May 2009, it was the most embarassing yet worst part of my life. emphatically, it was the worst time in my entire life so far. I was angry, disappointed, scared, and I was grieving over something repentantly. I was dooooown, was feeling blue for a month. that heart-breaking was waaaay more painful than broke up with any other guy in this earth. I cant explain what was the problem about.

I mean, it wasnt about love, family or friends. but it was about a little tiny mistake I did in the past, and someone I know, someone I put a lot of respect on, was doing something bad that almost put me in a disgraceful feeling forever.

everyone has moments like this, don't give up is the first thing. I know that's sometimes easier said then done. everything happens for a reason, and everything always work's itself out. we are given hurdles in life to see if we can jump over and overcome these hurdles. sometimes it takes longer then others, and sometimes it seems as if it will never get better. BUT it always gets worse before it gets better, but I know it will get better. we are the one who responsible for our happiness. so Remember, life will knock us down but we can choose to stand back up.

2010-06-15T01:32:00.000-07:00

I don't care how poor a man is; if he has family, he's rich. ~Dan Wilcox and Thad Mumford,

The family. We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together. ~Erma Bombeck

2010-06-13T23:30:00.000-07:00

being with you makes me feel like for once in my life I don't have to work on being happy,
it just happens.

2010-06-13T08:56:00.001-07:00

crying out loud bgt nonton video ini :(

2010-05-30T11:43:00.000-07:00

we should be proud :)

2010-05-29T23:15:00.001-07:00

SENANG SEKALI KETEMU LAGU INI LAGI, :)

2010-05-29T13:06:00.000-07:00

oh well howve you been?

uda lama gak capcapcuap di blog. kepengen juga tiba-tiba. i have some things to tell. salah satunya, ITS GETTING NEARER TO JUNE, which is : teman-teman tersayang pulang ke kampung halaman dari berbagai negara, my foundation is finally done, holiday is coming very soooon, and im gonna spend another 3 months holiday until September intake. ulalaaaa life's good *temporarily*

ive been spending and enjoying my very-last-last days with my foundation's fellows. mreka akan lanjut ke limkok malay, dan gue? gue harus mulai adaptasi dgn lingkungan univ gue yang baru ntar. agak deg-degan dan sedih sih. secara selama satu tahun ini uda lumayan kompak. tapi emang begini idup gue, harus selalu terbiasa dgn lingkungan baru. secara dr sd, smp, sma, foundation sampe univ, selalu pindah2 sekolah. yayayaaaa my choice.

another thing to tell, jadi kmrn gw annivs jadian sama ocan. trus gue bikin video gajelasan dari slide foto2 gue dan dia gitu, and it turns out to be a very big zero. i mean like, gue lupa pasang privacy gitu, jd cuma gue dan dia yg bisa nonton, tapi karna kmrn uploadnya lama dan gw tinggal greja gw buru2 dan lupa pasang privacy. I REALLY REALLY REALLY COMPLETELY FORGOT. trus jadi bisa diliat semua orang. it was a big mistake i did. soalnya, dari situ jadi byk yang ngomongin. bbrp temen ngelikes dan komen bagus2 sih, tapi gue denger sendiri gitu dari bbrp temen yg ngasitau klo gue kelebayan, terlalu over, dan kayak prewedding pdhl belom apa2. sedih :( padahal mksd gue ya cuma iseng doang mau sok2 sweet-an, dan cuma pengen ocan doang yg bisa nonton. tapi malah dikomentarin kyk gitu.. breaks my heart like OOH.

trus gue jadi mikir, kenapa orang dengan mudahnya ngeliat orang lain selalu dari kejelekan dan minus2nya ya. kayak gue bikin video itu, dan orang mikir "ih lebay bgt sih overr deh kayak prewedding, baru jg jadian brapa lama." mksdnya kenapa orang gak bisa kasih komen yang positif kayak "sweet bener bikin video gituan" atau apalah, yang bknnya gue kepengen. tapi kejadian ini jadi sangat ngebuktiin, too many people out there which maybe have no heart, can easily hurt someone's heart by their words.

WHY OH WHY? can you just think and talk positive?

2010-05-27T11:41:00.000-07:00

yang mau gue tulis di bawah ini adalah satu doa di film CIN(T)A , ini film buatan indonesia kok tapi bagus bgt. klik disini kalo mau nonton buffering di youtube : "CIN(T)A" ada bbrp part gitu dipisah2, nonton aja semua :)

DEAR GOD

In Your majesty, You create differences
In my arrogance, I question Your wisdom
In Your mystery, You create temptation
In my inferiority, You make me more than I am
So Here I am
Surrender me in the agony of Your love
Surrender me in the irony of Your law
Lead me to the joy of love redivined
Teach me how to love you more

2010-05-15T03:20:00.000-07:00

2010-05-09T08:14:00.000-07:00

nothing is impossible, if you let God involves.